Part 6: Hunger

Every day, I face the same dilemma – food or diapers?

On top of going to college, I’m also working three part-time jobs, yet there are days I can’t afford to eat. I’m getting better at managing what little money I have, but all the penny-pinching in the world won’t soothe the hunger in my belly.

Tonight, the exhaustion and hunger have left me feeling dizzy. I simply can’t wait to get off my feet after a long day of delivering newspapers, sitting through class, and cleaning houses. As I push the stroller down the sidewalk and look down at the chubby cheeks of my sleeping baby, a smile washes over my face, knowing that he’s well fed. This feeling of “not good enough” to be this beautiful baby’s mom still nags at my conscience, but I’m thankful I get to try.

As I climb the stairs to my apartment, I see something in front of my door. With darkness falling, I can’t tell what it is for sure, but as I reach the landing, it all becomes clear. My door is blocked by bags of groceries. I almost collapse in disbelief!

“What angel could have done this?” I wondered as I look around for my benefactor. But all is quiet. Nothing there except a note stuck to my door.

“These groceries are for you,” it started. “I hope you can use them. We don’t know each other, but I’ve seen you around the apartment complex with your little one. Your face kept popping into my mind while I was at Hy-Vee tonight. I went to pick up a gallon of milk, and something said, “Buy two.” From there, I felt compelled to pick up two of everything on my grocery list. I am not sure why, but I listened because I knew it was God speaking. I hope you can find joy in what God has provided.”